"It's a pity there's not you in class today."

One of my students wrote that to me the day I missed class. I just noticed it when I was going through my old emails.

I got my evaluations back today- they ask the students "what could be done to improve this class?" One of them wrote, "Get a new instructor."

IT IS GRANTED!! Not because of that comment, but because of a scheduling conflict. Anyway I'm out of grammar for the summer- maybe forever . . . who knows?

On a scale of 7 to 1, 1 being "No, never" and 7 being "Yes, Always" they were asked how friendly I was, I got one 1, one 3, one 4, one 5, eleven 6s and eight-teen 7s.

WOO-HOO!

One student suggested that we exercise in grammar class.

SERIOUSLY? I'm so out of grammar class if we have to do calisthenics.

One student suggested that the electives last "more long time."

One student really liked that I taught grammar in grammar class. Yes, indeed.

One student was asked what she liked about speaking class she said, "We can speak too much." That's good . . . right?

I dreamed pudding told me he was going sky diving. I questioned him about it because although I don't know how much it costs, it sounds expensive, not to mention dangerous. That was the whole of the dream. He said he was going, I questioned it and it was over.
I don't dream about him much any more, although the other night I dreamed he had a magic ram, horse and elephant he kept in his bag . . . I think however that was a WoW overload.
I wondered if the skydiving meant something, so I looked it up.

Skydiving

To dream that you are skydiving, represents your high ideals. Sometimes you may need to compromise these ideals and be more realistic of your expectations.

He's not good at compromise.

And I know it was me who called it over but
I still wish you'd fought me ‘til Your dying day
Don’t let me get away

Cause I can’t wait to figure out what’s wrong with me
So I can say 'this is the way that I used to be
There’s no substitute for time
Or for the sadness

John Mayer "Split screen sadness"

I’ve been working on will power and self control. One issue at a time for me. There are plenty to last me a life time. The one I’m working on now is selfishness. I think I am by nature selfish. I think most people are actually. Some people aren’t, they give away everything, share everything, but most, like me, I think, have a harder time. We have to work on it. Some of us have to work on it more than others. It’s big things and little things that tempt us to selfishness. When we break a candy in half, we want the bigger piece. When it’s time to share the cost of an event, we think we should have to pay less. When it comes to gifts; we try to get away cheap.

For me I suppose it comes from growing up poor. There wasn’t much to share, and I wasn’t usually asked to share, as everyone knew there was so little to go around. Other people often volunteered to pay for things for me because they knew I didn’t have anything.

You would think that with all the generosity I was shown I would have learned to show it myself. Some bad habits die hard though. Now I’m making the efforts in small things and large. When I break a piece of candy I make a note to give away the bigger piece. When it come to paying my part I try to give a little extra, I try to remember to offer more than I think is “fair.” When I feel put upon, I try to ask for another opinion. I don’t always succeed, but at least I’m trying to change a bad habit. I think that’s what I need to do to grow and learn and become better. I want to be better, no matter the cost. I know the reward will be greater.

I was just about to eat when I got this text, "Nah . . . I have time . . . Just not interested today."

I have time to talk to you about your wounded heart and your hurt feelings. I have time to explain myself to you, I have time to tell you how I feel hurt or angry or dissapointed. Yeah, I have time, I'm just not interested in talking to you about it today. Maybe tomorrow when I can deny I ever had a feeling, when I can rationalize it all. Maybe tomorrow or the next day when I am really bored, maybe then it will be more interesting to me.

I understand, and I wasn't really hungry anyway. It's not important enough for your time I guess. I just wrote and called and texted and left a message. Over kill? I guess I'm just too interested.

http://www.oneishy.com/personality/results/2e6cd3e0f

Personality: Phlegmatic Melancholy

Melancholy Strength:9 Weakness:6 38%

Phlegmatic Strength:9 Weakness:9 45%

Sanguine Strength:2 Weakness:2 10%

Choleric Strength:0 Weakness:3 8%

I feel really ugly.
Not like "OH my God! My eyebrows are enourmous!"
or "I have a million zits!" ugly.
I mean ugly on the inside.
I also know that I shouldn't feel this way.
I'm loved and I'm forgiven.
I know.
There is a plan for me.
I know.
There are signs and wonders and beauty all around.
I know.
How to stop a feeling?

second person


Break Your Heart Lyrics